Losing Myself in Jamaica
by Norm E.
she said, “So you think you’re setting your own agenda now?” She reminded me that God has always been in control and the sooner I realized this fact the better life would go. And she’s right; it is clear that ultimately we are leaving this earth 100% in God’s hands. It’s an illusion that we are in control prior to that time.
I met Christ in the marginalized and he ministered to me through them. I met Christ in those who have dedicated their lives in serving others. I saw joy in their faces; I also saw the burden in their eyes. That’s the paradox of service: hard, emotion rendering work, time not your own but it is through selflessness that true joy is experienced. Time not their own: It reminded me of the counsel that God is in control. I felt joy in my meager mission of presence however, at the end of every day I was tired and beat. Yet, through the direction of and in the hands of others, I experienced a joy I never experienced Mission reflects the joy of salvation in that salvation requires a complete abandonment to God’s will so that, paraphrasing Christ, one finds life by losing himself.